My mom got pregnant with me on her birthday while on a strong treatment for typhoid where the doctor told her specifically she couldn’t get pregnant because of the medication. She was considering having an abortion until she went to an ultrasound at one month and I was formed on the screen and my older sister said “ look Mami there’s my little brother swimming in his pool”.
I was born at 7 months with no medical problems with the size of a full term baby.
She on the outside has been very proud of me because out of the 3 of us, I’m the most “accomplished” ( a top student in high school, I got college offered scholarships, I finished college with job prospects, but I missed a big wedding because I was pregnant, Imagine a working mom with a Nanny), but on the inside she is very unhappy or critical of everything I did to the point she would buy my clothes because my taste was questionable.
I am the one that has always tried to please her until college and a dish not put away that basically made me say I am done. Internally, I try to please but have to remind myself that nothing can really please her. At 16 she told me she wanted to have an abortion while she carried me in her belly. You can imagine what that did to my self-esteem.
I don’t blame her but it would have been nice to see her be a fair person as a mother. She is the queen of backhanded compliments. God is the best answer to all. Jesus Christ reigns, Amen.
